This is a bit of a sentimental post. I’m writing this piece as it’s pouring raining and I’m sitting in my car outside of my son’s school, waiting for him to get out. In the last 48 hours I have cried a lot and have felt a cluster fuck of different emotions. I’m in a hard season of motherhood and even though most of the time I feel like I have it all under control, this week wasn’t going to follow suit!
Have you ever had one of those days that the world could be burning down around you and you didn’t realize what was burning, who set the fire, if the fire alarms are going off or is that the timer for dinner? Who knows? A day that everything is so fuzzy and all you want to do is go back to bed. Wait…you’re a mom, you can’t go back to bed, you can’t let the world burn down around you, and you know you must snap out of this quick. We’ve all been here, and we all know no matter how quickly we snap out of it we have still lost valuable time on a to do list that’s still waiting for us. Now our week is behind and we’re racing to catch up before the weekend arrives. This is also exactly why today my office is in my car with the seat warmers on while it pours outside of my son’s school.
Motherhood is no walk in the park, and when you’re going through a rougher season it can feel almost impossible. My oldest son is going through that awful preteen stage that I wasn’t expecting for at least another year or so. Emotions are all over the place and we are trying to help him properly navigate through it without letting our own emotions get the best of us. Then we have the soon to be 3-year-old that goes from party mode to miniature dictator in less than 3 seconds all while living his best life. So needless to say. . . things can get a little crazy, AND this week, everything got crazy! In all, it left me feeling like I was in the middle of an open field as a tornado ripped through.
I say all of this to remind you that life is not always going to be kind to you, no matter how much of a rockstar mom you are. Your kids are not always going to like you, and there will even be days when your pets will avoid you. It doesn’t make you less of a mom or a person because you’re having an emotional day or going through a really tough season. Do everything in your power to keep your head in a positive space and be open to whatever life lesson the universe is trying to show you. I know in the moment of feeling like the world is crashing down the last thing you want to hear is “everything happens for a reason” or “stay positive”.
Shit like that can send you spiraling, but I promise it’s true. When you’ve taken a few deep breaths, survived the day and maybe have a little bit of silence you’ll be able to understand that better. As hard as it can be, in times like this past week, I am reminded that the most important thing when times get rough is to stop and take a step back. Mommy needs a time out! Take 5 minutes, hide in a quiet room with the lights low, and sit on the floor and ground yourself. Maybe you need to put yourself in time out for 10 minutes so you can ugly cry for the first 5 minutes…DO IT! I literally do it all the time. Your kids don’t need to experience the true psycho you can be when you’re overwhelmed, and chances are the kids are the cause of only a small percentage of what’s building up inside of you. Most of it tends to be things completely out of our control, but that’s a topic for another day! If you are going through something like this right now, I want you to know I see you and I understand. You are an amazing mother.
You are a rockstar wife.
You are worthy and powerful.
You are strong.
You got this.
I believe in you.
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